justice beckons especially when there's open parts to the case. No justice. No peace. I'll settle for a plea bargain.
Hello
all new friends. pls read through all my posts and comments to know
what I'm all about. I'm expecting to be dead this summer. I will not
survive without a job anymore past this summer. I will not be signing my
life over to welfare or bankruptcy either. my family was involved in a
car accident long ago. 1 sister died. 1 sis got minimal damage and me
and my other sis lived in a children's hospital
for just under a year and over a year post accident. Fast forward 6 yrs
later when my father died and the sis w/ minimal damage was given a
Court order she wasnt allowed back in the home after mother acted out in
Court. Nothing was done for the 2 remaining children in the household -
no investigation - nada. So the remaining kids grew up w inappropriate
medical needs etc. fast forward to 30 years after accident mother
finally investigates what needs to be done while witnessing one of her
daughters living an inadequate life - or possibly she's too incompetent
to realize. Surrogate's Court grants guardianship to the sis in hosp for
longer than year to mother and sis with minimal damage and that's all
folks. Now I'm preparing to die this summer because I never got needed
protection and got my bachelor of science degree but w/
inappropriateness went no place. Dont listen to the Pink song about not
going to die - that's just as reckless as all the people who tried to
convince me nothing was wrong growing up. We became the children of
no-fault insurance growing up rather than victory winners against the
speeding and over-the-weight-limit truck that hit us head on. Please
read my posts/comments for further info. I'm presently in California
after executing my bucket list which included driving across the
country. I want to go back home but will not w/o proper intervention and
no one will hire me now. I'm looking into a situation today for a
possible survival on the east coast presented to me from a high school
friend but I have yet to be convinced there's a survivable plan to
return to. w. I have a very short time left. I'm living on my last ten
dollar bill and then have a twenty dollar bill - a dollar a day for
coffee. Then I have enough to get home or go on my final road trip. The
plan on the east coast discussed yesterday would work great if I have
the long overdue adequate job to sustain me over time. Still throwing
ideas atound but doesnt look very realistic. Maybe not? That really hurt
coz it would be so great. Threw out an SOS flare to a new fb friend who
lives in one of the European countries I'm entitled to dual citizenship
with. It's a long shot but what would anyone do? Fate put me in touch
w/ someone who reminds me every day how much I needed to be raised in a
household outside of my own where there is a reduction in stress and
confusion so I could get thru life successfully. Tic toc. If someone is
going to do something for me I need you to act quickly. I'm coming to
know about California heat and am past the days of sirviving on less
than 5 hours of sleep a day. Living as a sleep-deprived zombie is not
going to happen bcoz it's happened the past few days. Earlier than
expected I'll just go on my final road trip. I expected to last the
summer but it's not worth living like this. The person causing me stress
is a lot like judge Judy and I really like judge Judy but it is
appropriate for a Court room and not learning daily things. I'm not
guilty of what I dont know and I had no idea the majority of her friends
are acquaintances. She never told me who she trusts most or not -
there's been an assumption I guess that I would figure it out - NOT AT
ALL. so it turns out I let out some info about me that includes her but
turns out it went to a person considered more an acquaintance. It's not
my fault but the consequences are STRESS. I only call people "friends"
those that I share my life with. That's one thing how I was so confused
when I got to college and would hear people refer to someone they just
met as a friend. My friendship runs deep and personal as do
relationships. It's obvious I was not granted the proper guardian I
needed growing up. The plea bargain to the injustice - let me return to
the place I've gone to at any given time and formally get my sister the
updated medical care she not only deserves but expresses she wants.
Casey Anthony can potentially be retried federally. That's the same
revisitation my case needs before it's too late. It's not like I'm not
trying either. As usual I'm following up on a job lead tomorrow.
I'm
onto the chair disappearing, loud engine, silent library one. I really
am. I'm waiting to die though so couldnt give a shit anymore.
June 2nd 2013
If
someone is going to do something for me I need you to act quickly. I'm
coming to know about California heat and am past the days of sirviving
on less than 5 hours of sleep a day. Living as a sleep-deprived zombie
is not going to happen bcoz it's
happened the past few days. Earlier than expected I'll just go on my
final road trip. I expected to last the summer but it's not worth living
like this. The person causing me stress is a lot like judge Judy and I
really like judge Judy but it is appropriate for a Court room and not
learning daily things. I'm not guilty of what I dont know and I had no
idea the majority of her friends are acquaintances. She never told me
who she trusts most or not - there's been an assumption I guess that I
would figure it out - NOT AT ALL. so it turns out I let out some info
about me that includes her but turns out it went to a person considered
more an acquaintance. It's not my fault but the consequences are STRESS.
I only call people "friends" those that I share my life with. That's
one thing how I was so confused when I got to college and would hear
people refer to someone they just met as a friend. My friendship runs
deep and personal as do relationships. It's obvious I was not granted
the proper guardian I needed growing up. The plea bargain to the
injustice - let me return to the place I've gone to at any given time
and formally get my sister the updated medical care she not only
deserves but expresses she wants. Casey Anthony can potentially be
retried federally. That's the same revisitation my case needs before
it's too late. It's not like I'm not trying either. As usual I'm
following up on a job lead tomorrow.
Another bought and sold while we all die. http://www.cleveland.com/business/index.ssf/2013/03/judge_sides_with_wyoming_in_fr.html
No
new friend requests...until the next successful friend bomb...assuming
something saves the situation by then. will visit the original post to
see who I missed. Had to double-medicate for sleep last night. Double
the stress.
May 30th 2013
I'm
guessing there are people not happy with my updates but must keep some
things in mind 1. Incase this protest ends in my death records will be
kept of everything 2. Writing on my cheap Mobil phone is NOT easy so not
everything is worded as I wish. 3. I
finally blew tonight when reality was misrepresented thereby ruining my
reputation in an area where I'm obviously the outsider and the unknown.
4. Greg I never told you to pray. If you read the email I sent you,
you'll understand that I prefer to keep in touch writing because
conversations are not clear on your speaker phone and my cell phone -
sounds thru a fishbowl. I have every intention to keep up our
possibilities. 5. To top everything off I'm handed dinner after I blow
from lies (some potential ones) being told about me where I'm the loser
because who knows me here?
And
I was handed dinner by the very person misrepresenting that I just blew
to. 6. Its very obvious my mother was a wannabe which has nothing
whatsoever wrong w/ it, just gave me misguidance for life and that
misguidance will not save this life. 7 I need something realistic I can
return to.
May 28th 2013
Daddy's holding baby in heaven http://youtube.com/watch?v=j0Lcn7IFdAU
and this song totally brings me back to dad's sister's wake as we drove home in the pours of rain from Belle harbor Rockaway and I contemplated in the back of our station wagon with the back seat turned down http://youtube.com/watch?v=FvWnHAhKX6E
and this song totally brings me back to dad's sister's wake as we drove home in the pours of rain from Belle harbor Rockaway and I contemplated in the back of our station wagon with the back seat turned down http://youtube.com/watch?v=FvWnHAhKX6E
May 27th 2013
rudely
sneered at this morning as trying to come up with a plan over a
situation with time constraints. Then rudely bashed at for coming back
later asking if plan will work not having been told a piece of the
puzzle earlier which ties in with the plan itself. I totally needed to
be taken out of the home during development years to make sense out of
life. And what I got was a copycat version of todays rudeness.
http://investmentwatchblog.com/mount-etna-eruptions.../ this either explains it all or reveals the synchronicity in the universe.
got
a dirty look from one of her friends this morning who only has the info
from yesterday afternoon before Mt Etna was reminded what REALLY
happened. the missing piece of info she said she told me. I said "you
didnt say those words!" she said "I didnt
say that!" where's that diagram where I bang my head again? I'm totally
open that her friend was just busy and it wasnt a dirty look. stressed
is desserts spelled backwards. Growing up like this was harassment - not
funny. Not tough love.
May 26th 2013
Ran
across another person this time that couldnt place where they've heard
of mansanto but didnt know what it was. Their relative was exposed to
agent orange and kept complaining but was told repeatedly it never
existed. Fifety years later received compensation for agent orange
exposure. This was a guy thirty years my senior who dropped a hint he's
looking for a single gal and out of the blue suggested
gastric bypass surgery for weight loss. I let him know the same makers
of agent orange are making us fat. Didnt bother telling him I'm taking
six Mg (not mcg) of iodine a day. I had to go without for about three
months so God knows the weight I put on during that time. There's a
knocked off endocrine system for ya.
my
sister's name was Stephanie and our tragedy happened in 1978. even
since I got to Cali no one will hire me. received two rejections over
the intetnet from a local casino and none of the employment agencies I
registered with are calling me back. I'm limited in jobs I can
physically do and (for example) could never do reception in a doctors
office due to the constant play of the radio which most medical offices
have. I can do a radio playing while I'm talking customer service having
dual earphones on. as I get used to jobs I come across as not being
ready after college but that's not the case at all. I need to make sure
I'm doing the job right and freedom to take longer than the normal
person in getting used to new duties. I know a brain injured in syracuse
who didnt ask and at the end of the duty it was all wrong. it's
criminal what they cut his hours down to never to forgive or give a
second chance. other people make mistakes for sure. I'm totally at ease
doing research in a law library fourteen hours a day and obviously
driving cross continental. someone needs to hire me. I cant do my own
business yet I turn out to be some employers most reliable employee. btw
my mother pays for the phone but has been incoherent when accepting
this is my end unless she does something starting with admitting
mistakes. there's probably more details I'm not able to share right now.
thanks for sharing your story. I've been involved in the injury group
that meets in east syracuse as well as the stroke survivors group.
and
I dont mean to sound cold but my friends who have known about this
since I left in September 2012 have had 8 months to investigate,
protest, whatever it takes but I guess starting with a select few I'm
tempted to name, didnt see this as a worthy enough cause. but then again
like my fellow disabled I quoted it tragically doesnt have the momentum
like aids-gay community.
May 25th 2013
Got
strange pain today in upper stomach area. Same thing happened last time
I did a four loko marathon. Never happened with Tilt. I think they're
lying they changed the formula when took it off the shelves. All I can
say is DO NOT RESUSCITATE if I'm on my way back to the universe.
damn
right about mainstream media re: monsanto protest. Five people I came
in contact with today said "what's that?" I thought maybe when I did
petitioning against hydrofracking no one hearing of it was an isolated
event (to a degree)
and
another in addition to the gastric bypass suggester from this morning.
this is why someone should be employing me to get the job done like I
did with hydrofracking.
and
another in addition to the gastric bypass suggester from this morning.
this is why someone should be employing me to get the job done like I
did with hydrofracking.
May 24th 2013
I
have a real sour outlook on some of my shallow occupiers who have shown
me their ugly colors and here's another disabled person who proves I
aint crazy in my perceptions: "... how can disabled people mount an
effective protest when many of us are lying in bed unable to even sit up
and use a laptop? Sometimes I can write a blog post but often even that
is beyond me. I can usually manage to read, sign
and share a petition if it's brief but with the proliferation of
internet petitions, who really listens? The AIDS community had the
energy of gay rights activism to rally for their cause but few disabled
have that sort of mobilization power and getting non-disabled people to
care seems impossible, except of course those who are our care-givers -
they care but have their hands full and desperately need help..."
especially the part about the non-disabled.
Denny's
May 22nd 2013
I
just wasted a whole lot of time trying to upload a recording from my
phone. I dont have the equipment I need to buy to upload videos.
Apparently it's the same with audio.
anyway
it's the recording of my mother thanking me for the mothers day card,
hoping everything is ok with me (which screams out she did her job even
though I slept for a month after a rendezvous with a Mac truck and have
no developmental issues ) and I can come home any time I want - just let
her know I'm coming (which is the evidence I need that she lied to the
Court and her own lawyer in making out that I've been uninvolved in her
household for over ten years). the Italian mama I'm hanging with
distorts the truth all the time which is the same pattern of the Italian
mama I got burned by long ago - as if it's an accepted social norm.
Yesterday she called a third party to verify she was wrong.
unfortunately my mother is not that cut and dry.
May 21st 2013
Maybe
I should explain. When you're given the look of death at any given time
completely stressed out but the look has to do with making sure your
welfare is taken care of - Italian mama ways curdling my Irish blood?
After getting this look of death for
2 Weeks I'm told stay or go, either, I have a mind of my own. The
latter I already knew. Then the directions change again. This was all
over eating a meal. I have a sense of decency that I cant keep
freeloading off someone regardless of my situation. At the same time
trying to give them the company during a meal they want. This morning I
simply walked away.
I reverted back to my old way of communicating openly and it worked.
I
also really dont want to die but will if it comes down to it. this
situation is helping me stay alive longer but not providing the life I
need to sustain.I really don't want to die.
May 20th 2013
This deserves to be on both my child left behind page and this page since it's exactly some of the words I've said. http://www.ted.com/talks/aditi_shankardass_a_second_opinion_on_learning_disorders.html
and thank you to all who have accepted my invite to my page. It means a lot to me.
So let me guess. According to The Way International God knew all these people wouldn't believe so God allowed them to die.
http://www.hulu.com/watch/400148
http://www.hulu.com/watch/400148
I
dont need to guess. I know this is exactly what Claire has taught me.
of course she could always go back on her word and lie like she did in
Court that the Way never broke up. I know her beliefs on that too. That
lying is not best but it's not an irreversible sin.
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